Peek

09/16/2017

Your eyes can be better

Than cloudless blue skies

On mornings waking next to you

Half-awake and comatose

I force myself

To at least one open eye

As the Sandman hangs heavy

To see the fortunate peek

I am blissfully afforded

Into heaven

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Let your hair down

07/25/2017

I get out of work

It is late

I let my hair down

We had spent the weekend together

A day in the sun

Grilled out

I had let my hair down

I spent the night at your place

You had run errands

I tried to be domestic

I had let my hair down

The next day

You worked during the day

I watched your TV, then showered

Then worked through the night

When I let my hair down

With your shampoo’s scent

The wind took me to you

Golden treasures

05/09/2017

My simple black V-neck

Seems to attract your golden threads

Just friendly reminders of you

And so I value them as treasures

Appearing randomly in unexpected places

Like gems out of nowhere

You are an alchemist’s dream

All the things

05/05/2017

You were brave enough

Gathered your thoughts

But as usual, were too stubborn 

Your eyes betrayed you 

There was no hiding your meaning

When you uttered those three words

Every day we collect more of the things

A full life

12/27/2016

I normally write poems here, but I wanted to leave something said so that should I be “called home”, there could be no ambiguity to this subject. I am currently 35-years-old and in my eyes, I have lived a full life already. I look forward to what I’m trying to treat as my “second life” and the experiences and people that will fill what is to come.

What I want to write about here, though, is my “1st life”. I have been fortunate from the beginning. My parents still are together and supporting and loving my little brother and myself. That is a feat that is so uncommon these days, that it must be my base stock for the endowment of fortune in my life. With the stability that my family provides, I have been able to explore the world and expand my circle of loved ones. That is where I find my wealth. 

I have lived in many neighborhoods and have traveled the world and country, more than most will in a lifetime. Along the way I have expanded my “family”. My best friends have given me the honors of being in their weddings, ranging in capacity from groomsman, best man and I even officiated one solid matrimonial  ceremony (and am Godfather to the fruit of that love). It is humbling to be so loved by so many, with so little to give.

I write this today because the end of the year is drawing nye and I am reflecting on life’s ebbs and flows. This year has had its lion’s share of calamity, loss and injustice, both personal and collective. So there is a dilemma presented with that fact; what should be my focus? Loss or love?

I choose love. I give thanks to those that I share my life with and to those no longer with us that enriched my world. I am strengthened by the support and unfailing safety net provided. The acceptance of my flaws gives me hope to become better. The understanding of my sense of humor keeps me sane. 

As my “family” grows, I just wanted to take a moment on a bullied pulpit to say thank you for the life I have, that would be nothing without you. 

Subtle 

12/24/2016

There are short stories 

And ones that go

On in memories 

I hope that you breach that gap

My heart can’t take much more

The threshold is small

But let’s risk it all

Hold my hand 

And run

Together 

Cada día vuele 

Si Dios quiere

A veces hay huelga 

Y hay otros de trabajo

Sin embargo, cada día seguimos
Otra botella vacía 

Un orgullo destrozado 

Vergüenza de mi mamá 

Pero hay los que me valedicen

Y se le doy las gracias 
La benediction que uno gana

De tener la humilde fortuna 

Que nos da un abrazo 

De un cachorro con mucho más de ver

Por lo menos 

Por un mínimo 

No soy un desgraciado 

Precious stones

11/11/2016

I remember 

As a child searching the shore

After a storm on the coast of Lithuania

Seaweed, pebbles and broken shells

Palangos waters whelping debris

You made me a happy man

Stumbling upon a precious stones

Amber beneath my feet

Payoff for the storms that past

I may not be rich

But my wealth

I find in you

This life of Sisyphean tasks

Has my heart rendered mute

Though it may scream, gasping
I don’t know where the time has gone

Nor how the Cairn wound up on my soul

But now we are here 

Barnacles and grey chin sprouts
Forever will I endure

Mostly for those who are

Forever fighting for me

What life throws in my face

Be that mercy or grievance
I know where the hope that I have

Comes from

And will be kept as my blaze

Through days and mostly night

free fall

01/19/2012

I was pushed out

the ripcord failed

the safety denied hope

suspended like a particle in a bog

here I fall slowly towards my fate

to rest among the other debris

forgotten decomposing leaf

or am I frog feces

either way, I will be indistinguishable

forced out to lay among the mire

when I come to, it will feel like terminal velocity stopped

by jagged rocks or perhaps a metal rod

until then I fly alone in free fall

looking at my unfortunate fate